i tried to wrestle last night if i should write about harry potter because it might get lost with all the great reviews about harry. but the hell with it. fuck it as they say. i just have to write about harry.
so i was 13 years old when i had my first harry potter book. the first book that was actually mine and it was a novel to boot! unfortunately it was the second one (mom only got hold of the second as the first was always sold out because of the first movie which i missed) and i lived in ozamis back then. movies where always almost a month late. no good quality bookstore was ever around and one has to at least go to cagayan de oro to try their luck to no avail most of the time. cebu was a "to go to" place to be for one to be updated with these stuff. no offense to the people back there but there's nothing much going on during those days (even maybe today unless you are the who's who of the city). so there i was wondering what the eff will i do with this book without even knowing the hype that harry was building in manila. i eventually learned about it when i had my vacation on that summer.
that summer was very significant as it molded my mind round what harry really was for me. the actor was almost the same age as he is and a lot of my generation can relate when i saw that we grew up with harry (even though his age frame was practically slower than us). there came a point when i memorized all the lines of all the characters in all of the scenes of the movie. i fell in love with the book and the movies that when i reached my mid high school days until my college days (still am... FUCK!) i would make it to a point that i would read all the books and watch all the movies of harry potter.. then opportunity struck when my aunt bought a hell lot of children encyclopedias and the bonus pack was 5 hard bound HP books! great! i devoured all of them.. so when the 6th book went out, i bought it out of my own money and when the last book came i was pre listed in NB to 2 or 3 months before it came to philippines. i saved all the money i have just to buy that book... and as i watch harry potter i just cant help to think that as the movie moved on nearer to the end i know that the time of saying goodbye to my harry potter would be near.. and a feeling of loneliness came to me..
here comes the relevant part..
harry was saved because his mother gave him all her love before dying for him.
say again: his mother's love saved him from death.
that is the most important part for me. i know J.K.R. was herself a mother and maybe was depicting her love for her children but i took it as my own mom giving the same thing to me.
harry lived and i still am living because my mom gave me all the love in the world. i admittedly may have overlooked it a lot of times but i never forgot how feel that love..
the other day i received the most devastating message one child can have...
mom i dont hate you. again i dont hate you.. i just hate what you did.. u just have to tell me before it happened and not after..
we lose people in our lives. they come, they go. we all live and die. i have came in terms with that lately because no one can control their lives 100%. i accept that someday ill die. i know someday people around me will die and will leave me either physically or emotionally but as i said "someday".
i know that what you did was for the greater good and for the better because you are the wisest person i know, mom. but please consider this, i accept that someday you will be gone and i may not be able to talk to you anymore but not today.. not tomorrow and not anytime soon... i love you ma... please take care of yourself..
so while i was watching harry potter, all i can think of is my mom.. she gave me my first book. she introduced me to the first string of novels which i read. she introduced me to all the great things that i come to love and treasure in this world.. i may have come into terms that no HP movies will come out soon. i finished and read all the books almost 3 times each. i watched all the movies and watched Voldemort died, Harry will still be as important as the Star Wars was important to you mom..
